i am so sorry..
can u please forgive me?

i just want you to be happy....




it must be the little things that i've said,
that makes you sad...

i am so sorry..

They mentioned her name
and they awaken in me
all my torn wounds
that never healed

The most beautiful name
my ears ever heard
I just can't chase away
her picture from my mind

She is there sitting
smiling at me with wondrous eyes
asking me the same
question over and over
what is it that you want ?


And I have my lifetime
to understand what I wanted
what did I want ?
what was I looking for ?

Whatever I was looking for
or I wanted is surely not
to be lost in her love
so silently in pain
for the rest of my life

But here I am still
seeing her picture in my mind
and trying to understand that questioning smile of hers
the most cherished memory of
love I ever had of her ..
is that questioning smile


Some gets away with kisses
some gets away with holding the one they loved
and I guess I got away
with her wondrous lovely smile to
stay with me the rest of my lifetime
~By aurumium



leagan ,

i haven't spoken to you for months...

how are u? i wonder.

a feeling of having never left you, persisted
like the scent of bulgarian rose,



strong, intense, while attractive and adorable
and a remembrance of a beauty that once so true



and so soon,
the tranquility started to fall apart
tried to put back bits and pieces,
but to no avail; the end has started


then the darkness came.
the hollowness of an empty picture frame
reembles with a fragrance of emptiness ,
the loneliness, the feeling of longing for a name



how are you... i wonder

back then, i wanted to proof that i have a chance to win

tonight, i only want to show you who i really am